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Feel Good Monday

Happy Mondaaaaayyyyy!

I love Mondays, and you know this, right?

Maybe I’m a little bit EXTRA happy today. If I am, here are a few reasons:

  • I did my run AND yoga even though I was struggling with the first day of “the affliction.”
  • I had a few minutes on the beach, just looking the ocean, smelling the salt in the air, feeling the breeze, with the sun at my back.
  • I found the perfect writing desk, untreated, at Wood You. Now I just need to save the money, and think about/find the designs I want to stencil onto it before finishing it.
  • I edited a short story a wrote last week, and it’s alllllmost there. It will definitely be ready for the Cheers Reader competition on Thursday.
  • I feel like my short story writing skills are improving. The quality of this story in comparison to the last one (yes, I remember that I rushed it) is commendable. I’m going to go back to the other story later this week to bring it up to par.
  • I’ve been doing well with drinking water, and I’ve been practicing yoga more. I definitely feel the difference, and I like it.
  • I’m making soup tonight. It should be good for 3 meals each. Hopefully, I’ll find some nice bread to go with it.
  • My friend of 21 years or so celebrated her birthday on Saturday evening. It was a nice bbq at her house. It’s always nice to catch up with her. Another friend (of about 15 years) was there, and we hadn’t seen each other in about 3 years. Some other interesting people were there, so it made for a pretty cool evening. I was glad Babe got to meet two of my oldest friends – two of the only people from way-back-when that I bother to keep in touch with.
  • Babe loves me. I hear it and see it every day. 🙂 How fortunate am I?!
Goals for this week:
  1. At least 3 evening runs to get back into the groove
  2. Grocery shopping
  3. Lunch from home at least 4 days
  4. Polish short story for competition
  5. First draft of flash fiction for competition
  6. Full inventory of items in storage unit
  7. Develop a plan for the purchase of my own vehicle without bank financing
Funny exchange from the weekend:
Aunt: “Is this your first time seeing a rainbow?”
Cousin (8 yrs): “No. I saw one before, when I was a kid.”
Anxious about:
Dad: “How much do you have saved towards a car?”
Me: “Not much…”
Dad: “Have you been doing ANYthing?”
Me: “Yeah…[volume goes way down as I say things that don’t make sense]”
Sooo, yeah… I was given one of my dad’s/brother’s cars to use, but now the one my brother was driving is down. It won’t be fixed for a while because it costs over $1000. I think they need the car back. I might be screwed.
Hope you had a great weekend, and you’re feeling positive and full of energy for the week ahead!

What are you up to today? How do you feel?

Weekend Recap

Happy Mondaaaaayyyyy! My day/week got off to a great start, and it’s probably largely due to a fantastic weekend. I’m gonna rewind a bit, and fill you in on it.

SATURDAY

  • Morning run. I toootally drove in the direction of work instead of going to my new run spot. Lol. It was fine though, because there’s a really nice strip of beach out that way, and a sidewalk to run on. I just parked on the side of the road and ran there. It was sooo nice. The ocean, the minimal traffic, the breeze, the quiet of the morning… It was just great. I usually do 15-20 minutes of 3:1 (run:walk). For some reason, I just kept going. I RAN THE WHOLE THING! 15 minutes! I couldn’t get a decent picture of the stats, but here they are: Duration – 15;04″; Pace: 9’03” min/mi; Distance: 1.67 mi; Calories: 179. After the workout, the voice of Tiger Woods congratulated me on clocking my FASTEST MILE! 9’08”! I guess running the whole way instead of run-walking would obviously result in a faster mile, but hey… It was nice to hear and see it. So this working out and training has been paying off. Imagine if I actually managed to stick the plan and run when I want to! (I should be able to now, with transportation sorted out.) I seriously ran the whole thing. I know that’s like nothing for a lot of people, but huuuge for me. I wonder how long it’ll be before I can do 30 minutes non-stop. I’m not in a big rush though. Enjoying the journey, appreciating the process.
  • Morning yoga. Yeah. Right after my run, it was time to head over to yoga class. My mother was diagnosed with MS over a year ago, and her doctor recommended yoga. She really needs to do all she can to stretch, strengthen, and relax her muscles. Yoga it is. *sighs* I was NOT excited about this class. All I ever thought was, uuuugh, yoga is so dummmb. What’s the point of all that stretching and breathing and crap. Dummmb. Waste of time. And energy. BLAAAH! It didn’t help when I took a “beginner” class at the gym on my university’s campus and HATED it. It was crazy. I was like, “Lady, are you SERIOUS?! How am I gonna get my leg there?!” I just laid on my mat and went to sleep until it was over. Well! Imagine my surprise when I actually ENJOYED the yoga class on Saturday! I actually FELT things. Parts of my body WOKE UP. It was amazing. Mind you, I still wasn’t down for all the breathing stuff. I got bored once or twice. I actually like to meditate (for short times), but I think the runner’s high had something to do with it. I felt like I could bounce from wall to wall, and possibly fly. It was a big switch. Anyway, I liked it. I found that I was able to do quite a bit more than I thought I could. It was challenging, but you can bet your fanny that I answered the call! I’ll be back on Saturday with my mom. Again, it will be after my run. Maybe I’ll have a walk after the run to bring myself down a little? I don’t know.
  • Breakfast. I really don’t believe in buying breakfast. It seems so silly. It’s so easy and cheap to make eggs and turkey bacon at home, or whip up some oatmeal. Why pay for breakfast?! Well, I’ve taken to really treating myself on Saturdays. I buy a big breakfast for myself (stew conch – like a conch soup? – with a big piece of johnny cake – a cross between cake and bread). I’ll have to take a picture of it next time. I also get breaky for Babe and for my mum. It’s always sooo good, right after a shower, and right before lounging on the couch with my nook.
  • Quick dash out with Babe. The phone company was set up in a shopping centre parking lot giving away modems and waiving installation fees for the internet. Well, we don’t have a phone, so we didn’t qualify. Oh, well. While we were there, we went grocery shopping. Note that every time I use “we” in this particular point, I actually mean Babe. I just drove. And sat in the car and waited. I was WORKED OUT. AND really full. Hahaha.
  • WIIIIINE DINNNNNEEEEERRRRR! Sooo good. Our friends Vanessa, Ashley, and Rea joined us. It was a good time. Good food, good wine, great company. Everyone enjoyed the meal and the company. I’ll post the menu tomorrow. (This post is already really long.) And maybe some pictures, if WP wants to be nice to me.

SUNDAY

  • Chiiiiillllllllll. Babe made breakfast. Pancakes, eggs, and turkey baconnnnn! WOO! Loved it.
  • We pretty much stayed in bed, reading our nooks and chatting.
  • Laundryyyyy. I usually have FamJam but my great-gram went away, so I met my brother at her house to do laundry.
  • Dinneeerrr. I’ve been meaning to cook a nice meal for Babe for a while. I bought all the stuff for it last week, but didn’t get around to doing it. Well, last night, I did! We had chicken parmesan on spaghetti. I’ve definitely done better, but it was okay. Babe seemed to like it.

LESSONS LEARNED

  • The body is amazing.
  • I can do anything I want, as long as I don’t just want, but put in the effort.
  • Don’t knock it ’til you’ve tried it. Twice.
  • Routines are nice. So are treats.
  • Give. Take. Give some more.
  • Wine makes everyone happy.

 

How was your weekend? Did you do anything exciting/different? Did you learn (or re-learn) any lessons?

4 Things

Things I tell/show myself to keep on keepin’ on…

  1. There is beauty all around us. It’s already there. It’s just up to us to notice it. And appreciate it.
  2. Cute/Quirky/Cool/Different videos for songs I like… Seeker Lover Keeper has a lot of these, and this is probably my favourite.
  3. Family and friendship and support. It’sespecially super cool that people I’ve never met “in real life” have been playing such a big, important role in my life… In particular, as related to what I’m going through right now. There is kindness in the world.
  4. There are things to do. To write. There are writing competitions… Magazines needing writers… Blog posts to do… I can make myself busy. No need to sprawl on the couch, sinking into a state of (do) nothingness. I can write!

Weekends of Enjoyment

I tried to post this from my phone on Monday night. Clearly, it only saved as a draft. A few days late, here’s a late post. Lol.

Now that another weekend has come and gone, I’ll tell you about last weekend. Yeah. That’s how I’m rolling these days. LATE.

Babe and I registered for an art workshop at the National Art Gallery. It was supposed an abstract painting thing in the style of a Bahamian artists. The facilitator decided that we wouldn’t really copy any particular style. He sort of left us to do our own thing. The only thing he really showed us was a brush technique. *scratches head* ANYway, it was fun-ish. I was lost for most of the time, not really knowing what to do. I’m pretty thoughtful and calculated, so it was hard for me to just shut my brain off and do things. It was weird. I didn’t like it very much. I didn’t like the finished product either. Still, I think it’s something I’d like to explore on my own, without an audience. Maybe Babe and I will get a few canvases and some paint, and muck around at home. Oh. And Babe? SO good. SO SO good. The woman has serious skills. I keep wondering what amazing talent/skill will show up next. Her painting was/is AMAZING. She wasn’t crazy about it, but I convinced her that it’s GREAT, and HAS to go on our wall. I’ll share a picture of it once we hang it up. Halfway through the workshop, we had to do a collaborative painting. Babe and I did an elephant. Really, SHE did it. I sort of did background crap. And the eye. She drew it, outlined it, etc. It’s NICE. I like IT, and I like that fact that we did it TOGETHER (in whatever proportions). Wherever we go, I think we have to take that elephant with us. That will always be the only elephant in the room (because we talk far too much/candidly to have any others).

After the workshop, we went to a church fair. The Catholic Cathedral was having it’s annual thingy. I knew about it because a lady in the building I work in was selling raffle tickets and I bought two for Babe and me. The church just so happens to be right across the street from the gallery. We were just going to check it out, but it was really nice. Lots of stalls and lots of good food! 🙂 We filled up on junk and sat around for a while. When we were good ‘n’ ready, we heading to the bus stop, three painting in tow. We got settled in, and went to sleep. We overslept. LOL. We always get so comfy when we cuddled up for these little naps. We ended up having to rush to get ready for our dinner date with Vanessa. I’ve mentioned Vanessa before. She’s super cool, and a good friend of ours. We like hanging out with her. There’s always lots of talking, and lots of laughs. That night, we splurged on a Wine Dinner at a restaurant near where I work. Get ready, because I’m sharing the menu.

Champagne upon arrival

Korbel Winery California Champagne, Brut Rose, California’s Russian River Valley

1st course

Pan seared Curried sea scallops with caramelised pears and crème fraise –

Kendall Jackson Vinters Private Reserve, Sauvignon Blanc, Santa Rosa California 2009

2nd Course

Apricot and Ginger glazed salmon filet over warm buckwheat soba noodle salad –

NOBLE Aconcagua ,Chardonnay, Mendoza Argentina 2009

3rd Course

Peppercorn and tarragon Beef tenderloin served over sweet potato mash and green beans

Sangre De Toro, Garnacha and Mazuelo, Catalunya Spain, 2009

4th course

Rosemary and vanilla slow roasted lamb shank over goat cheese stuffed portabella mushroom –

Telteca Roble, Malbec, Mendoza Argentina 2009

5th course

Dark Chocolate truffle mousse

 Henry of Pelham last harvest Riesling, Ontario Canada, 2008

 

You probably don’t need me to tell you that it was really good, right? Anyway, it was. We all thoroughly enjoyed our meals and the wine. Even me. And I’m kind of discriminating and critical with food. I don’t even like salmon OR lamb, but they both VERY good. Actually, I think I’m warming up to salmon a bit. Weird. Funny how our tastes change, right? Someday, I’ll explain my aversion to fish. Not today. The wine dinner started at 6:30, and we got home around 10:30pm. We had a solid 4 hours of a nice, relaxing time with good company. We all agreed that we should make an effort to do it regularly. We’re thinking once per month. This makes me happy. I LOVE eating out, and I REALLY enjoy getting to do it with people I really love.

This weekend, we’re doing a potluck dinner. Vanessa is gracious enough to host it. I’m looking forward to it. The three of us always have a good time together, PLUS my cousin and friend recently moved to Nassau, and I’ve been wanting them to meet Vanessa. I like introducing cool people to other cool people. Widening the circle. Vanessa is also inviting a friend I haven’t met yet. The menu is looking good, there will be drinkage, and the company is sure to be deeelightful. It’s Monday and I’m already looking forward to the weekend. Hahahaha.

Yesterday, Ma cooked up a hell of a Thanksgiving dinner. Thanksgiving isn’t a holiday here, but we DO tend to follow (US) fashion, so lots of restaurants will be preparing turkey dinners on Thursday. None will top the homemade dinner our family had yesterday. Ma is a HELL of a cook. We had white rice (most people will have peas ‘n’ rice, but we’re not big on that), mashed potato, (baked) macaroni, turkey, ham (which I passed on, of course), sweet potato, brocoli, carrots and green beans, stuffing… I think that was it. My stomach was very pleased with it. Ma is leaving for a cruise on Wednesday, and will be away for the next two Sundays. My aunt will probably take over the Sunday dinners, but I’ll be glad to spend those Sundays with Babe, having our own Sunday dinner.

Well, it’s time for me to get back to work. I just took half of my lunch break to do this post and eat my sandwich. The next half, I’ll spend trying to finish my short story. The deadline is NEXT WEEK! I want it done by end of day tomorrow so I can take a nice (two day) break from it before going back at it with my hatchet (editing).

And now, introducing Angelique Sabrina – a new, young Bahamian singer. She’s 13 years old, and she’s playing on the radio. The songs are cute/fun/catchy, and very age-appropriate, but somehow relatable?! ANYway, here’s one of them:

Speakerbox – Angelique Sabrina (I’ve been having issues with embedding YouTube videos lately. Anyone else?!)

Loser Blvd – Angelique Sabrina (This one is an actul video. I like it, except for all of the makeup and hair. Too old-looking, I think. Anyway, the song? I think it’s super cute. Reminds me of Avril Lavigne when she first came on the scene.)

What are you up to today? Wanna tell me about your weekend? The last one, the one before it, the one that’s coming… Take your pick, since I dished on all of them. LOL. OH! And are you working on any little projects?

Expect the Unexpected (via Maggie Mae’s Days)

LOVE this. Had to share it.

Expect the Unexpected I know I've heard many a person say, "You never know what to expect".  Time and time again I've heard those words or uttered them myself in relation to various situations, circumstances and events. This has always held true in my personal experiences in life so far… Just when you think you know, you find out in reality you really have no idea… But you see, life always has a way of changing on ya… the path in the road winding in a different … Read More

via Maggie Mae's Days

5 Things I’d Rather Be Doing

It’s FIVE THINGS FRIDAY!

Ok, I may have made that up. Whatever. I think it’s cool. This Friday, I’ll tell you 5 things I’d rather be doing. I’m at work, and I don’t like it here, so I’d really rather do just about anything. Picking just 5 is harrrd.

  1. Making lasagna. This comes to mind because Babe and I were at the grocery store last night, and I said, “Think we should get ricotta cheese and lasagna pasta so I could make lasagna?” Babe said, “If you’re gonna make it…” That settled it. I didn’t get the items. Mostly because we had spaghetti this week. That’s just red meat overload. And Italian overload. In one. Still, I’d rather be making lasagna right now. Even if it makes the kitchen really hot. Lasagna is awesome. Work is not.
  2. NookBook shopping. I could really use new books for my Nook (Nooklebury Nookington). That, however, requires money on the card. The bank I use for such things is not one I’ve visited much at all. I rarely make deposits there. I should toss some money on it so I could buy things. Like NookBooks. And shirts for work. That requires having money that can actually be disposed of in such a way though, huh? Hmmm…
  3. Having lunch with friends. People I like. Food. Drinkage. (Yes, I made that word up.) That is what life is supposed to be about. Not 40 hours/wk of supreme boredom. *stares at office walls*
  4. Tanning on the beeeeeach. Yep. Under the sun. On the sand. Near the water. In the moment. Out of the office. *closes eyes for a mental journey*
  5. Visiting my grandmother. Hospitals are boring. She’s in one. I’d keep her company.

(From myglitters.info)

What 5 things would you rather be doing at the moment?

It’s Thankful Thursday!

Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn’t learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn’t learn a little, at least we didn’t get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn’t die; so, let us all be thankful.                  -Buddhist Quote

Honestly, I’m not feeling particularly thankful. I’m actually in a not-so-great mood. It’s not fun. You know… When your mood sucks. I’d rather be happy. I knooow, [mocking tone] haaappiness is a decisionnn. It’s just a decision I don’t feel like making right now. I’m gonna play King of Sorrow by Sade, allow myself to have a moment, and THEN, if I FEEL like it, I’ll decide to be happy. And thankful. Wait right here while I go do that, k?

[King of Sorrow plays as I sing some parts, and just cry during others. Then a few minutes of silence as I get myself together. Wash my face. Drink some water. Clean my glasses. Put them on for the first time today. Look back at the task at hand. Take deeeep breath. Sip more water. Choose to be happy. Think of all the things I should be thankful for, even if I’m not in this moment. Until I AM.]

Okay. I’m ready. It’s another Thankful Thursday, so you know a list is coming, right? Here are things I’m thankful for today:

  1. Life. My life, although I haven’t managed to like every single minute of it, is not too shabby. I breathe without labour. I have food to eat when I’m hungry. I have clean water to drink, cook, and shower. I have family and friends, and they’re real.
  2. Healthcare. My grandmother is in the hospital. For the first time in her life (aside from giving birth to her children). Two days ago, she felt very ill. Heart racing, feeling weak, etc. Yesterday morning was worse. The decision was made to call the ambulance. Her blood sugar level was almost 5x what it should have been. I visited her last night. She looked good. She was calm, relaxed, and well-taken care of by the hospital staff, and her children.
  3. Lunch. Babe made spaghetti last night. I wasn’t hungry by the time I got home, so I didn’t eat. Still, Babe made enough meat sauce for me to have some for lunch today. I just made some noodles this morning, and BAM! Lunch. (I love bringing lunch from home, and very much dislike buying lunch. Especially since the places around here are: hot dog vendors, the worst Chinese food ever, and a sandwich/pasta deli with super salty food.)
  4. Internet. Keeps me entertained at work, connects me with friends AND new people, keeps me in touch with Babe while we’re apart, loads of information at my fingertips… It’s just great.
  5. Grams’ humor. My grandmother is super funny. And good-natured. And positive. It cracks me up a lot. Here’s a bit of the exchange I had with her:
Me: Hi, Grammyyy!
Gram: Oh, look who it is! How you doooing?
Me: Nooo, how are YOU doing?
Gram: Me? I’m in TOP SHAPE! [This is her standard answer to the above question, no matter what!]
Me: Top. Shape? Then what are you doing in here?
Gram: Good question. What I doing in here, hey? This ain’ no way to spend a vacation now, is it?
Me: *laughs* No, not at all. *looks around room* You don’t even have an ocean view in this room.
Gram: Yes, I do! Look! *points at picture of a beach scene on wall*
Me: Oh! You do! I see.
Gram: *laughs*
———————–
Gram: Yes, everyone (minus Chris) was here today. All of them (my 8 children minus Chris) were standing up out there, working on getting me this room. The hospital was full.
Me: Oh, yeah, I heard there were no beds. That’s good you got one. And they were here to make sure you got sorted out.
Gram: Yes. The only one I didn’t see today is Chris. It’s his birthday. We were supposed to be having a party tonight.
Me: Party?
Gram: Yes, for his birthday.
Me: Oh, well I guess we’ll have to party later. When we get you outta here.
Gram: Yes, we’ll probably do it for Stevie’s (grandson) birthday. His is on [insert day here].
———————–
The woman was in the hospital, making me laugh, and talking about eating crab cakes, mangoes, and having birthday parties with cake. What a woman!
I have to say that I feel much better than I’d decided to feel a few minutes ago. Thinking of the things I’m thankful for and remembering the exchange with Gram… It really put things into perspective. And reminds me that I’m control of my happiness. Sure, there are sucky moments, and there may be times when it’s harder to pick myself up and be great… Sometimes, I may need a nudge from a friend, a lunch packed by my Babe, a nice email/text message, a surprise phone call from a far-away friend, a cupcake, or a can of COOOLLLD Coca-Cola… But at the end of the day, I can WANT to be happy, and MAKE. IT. HAPPEN. For knowledge of this, I am thankful.
HAPPY THANKFUL THURSDAY!
What are you thankful for today?

Internet Me (Day 9 of 30 Days of Truth)

Day 9 – Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted

No one really comes to mind, no matter how many times I read this question. I haven’t kept in touch with many people from previous stages of my life, and it hasn’t been intentional. I guess it’s due more to lack of intention and/or action. I don’t feel the need to aggressively, specifically, intentionally keep people in my life. I’m sure that if they should be in my life, they would be. [insert quote about people being in your life for reasons, seasons, etc. here]

I’m not in touch with people from elementary school, though a lot of them were the same people I went to high school with. (I went to a K-12 private school.) Well, to be fair, the people I was close to at any point in life are probably friends of mine on Facebook. See, that’s the thing. These days, there really isn’t much room to be “out of touch” with anyone. You may not be buddy-buddy, going to the movies, hitting clubs, grabbing drinks in bars, sitting side-by-side at random events any more, but you can still feel like these people are a part of your life, and you a part of theirs. It’s all because we have instant, easy access to people’s LIVES. Pictures, videos, status updates (however frequent or infrequent), twitter feeds, blogs, and personal websites. Who needs the telephone?! Who needs to hang out in REAL LIFE?! Answer: No one.

We’ve come a long way, haven’t we? In two directions at once. In some ways we’ve made giant steps forward, and in a lot of ways we’ve made gigantic steps back. I’m connected (via various internet sensations) to people I probably would have lost all contact with/for a long time ago. Is this a good thing? Yeah, probably. When we use such technology, we have the option to make a real connection if we’d like to. That’s nice to know. If I ever wanted to reconnect with my 2nd roommate in university, I could search for her on Facebook and send her a message. We could arrange a Skype call if we live too far apart. WALAH! It’s like magic.

There are a lot of people I didn’t intentionally “let go,” but we managed to drift apart. That’s fine with me. I won’t lament or stress about it. It’s FINE. We can reconnect if we WANT to. And that’s what’s important.

This Life Is Worth Living (Day 7 of 30 Days of Truth)

Day 7 – Someone who has made your life worth living for

There are so many great people in my life. I’ve had great support all my life, from family and friends. Different people have contributed to my life, supported me, taught me lessons, made me feel better, saved me, and been present when need the most at different points and in different situations. To single anyone out would be unfair. It would also be a little ridiculous to say that one person has made my life worth living. If someone had to make my life worth living, I should probably just perish, no? I think it’s enough to say that people have made trying times more bearable, given me more than my share of laughs and smile, supported me, built me up… You know… That stuff.

I guess I should start dishing out some credit…

Ma – ALWAYS there. Always. She’s 91 years old, and still the strongest person I know. Period. Always available, always willing and able to help, always to-the-point, always honest, always sincere, always always.

Auntie – There to listen, there to advise. Asks questions to provoke thought. Makes suggestions. And sandwiches. Does a lot of cooking and feeding. And praying.

Parents – Always do the best they can, denying nothing that is in their power.

Siblings – Multi-everything. All so different, but have and share the same love, care, and concern. Super-support. Drop anything at any moment to help me cry, take me home, bring me a meal, or share a good joke.

TEverything I ever wanted and needed in my life, whether I knew it or not. The Love of My Life. If I say much more, this would end up being a separate post because once I start, I find it hard to stop. My Babe is just the most amazing person. The most perfect person. For me. And only me.

I don’t want to get into listing friends separately… They know who they are. They know that I value a good little pow-wow. A listening ear. A devil’s advocate. A good story. A trip to the beach. Or ice cream shop.

Little things in varying combinations make up the big ol’ thing that is life. And it IS worth living. It’s just that the people we let in add different kinds of special. Like herbs and spices add flavour to a pot.

Paying to Survive (Day 6 of 30 Days of Truth)

Day 6 – Something you hope you never have to do.

I never want to have to deal with another serious/chronic/autoimmune/terminal illness. Not in a family member, not in a friend, not in myself. It is so draining, in every way.

One thing I don’t understand is the cost of medication. And treatment, for that matter. It makes no sense. How could it cost so much money for a person to preserve life?! Governments intervene to regulate the prices of bread basket items, seemingly because we need them to live. What about medicine? What about treatments like chemotherapy? What about rehabilitation? How does it cost thousands and thousands of dollar to preserve life? To treat illnesses, to ease symptoms, to slow the decline… Why?

I’d rather not have to deal with illness in anyone close to me. It’s a difficult, trying time. Coming to terms with the diagnosis, learning about the condition, reviewing treatment options, finding the money, fighting insurance companies, getting emotional support, preventing relapses, raising awareness. There’s so much involved in it. At the end of the day, we do what we must. We do the best we can with what we have. We try to get what we don’t have, but realize we need. It feels like a never-ending game of tug-of-war. But we do it. When we have to. Because we have to. I don’t want to have to. But I will. If I do. But I hope I don’t. Ever again.